This happened years ago, just that one time when i was a kid. I have no reasonable way to put this into words as i have never experienced anything like it and the words im using to explain it even now makes it dull.

I was i think 11 and the whole house was asleep, back then i used to read books, draw cartoons and write music while using my torch for illumination (The house we live in is small and my room has no door, so if I turn the room light on, my parents can see it, and my dad/mom would come over and ask what i was doing in the middle of the night with lights on. I cant stay up past my bed time back then) So one day i was writing a song(it was past midnight i think) and all the songs id ever written were shitty, and i was aware of that fact, but this song, it came quite nicely that was when i felt it. It was like a flower opening inside my chest, my heart felt like it was made out of gold and the blood running through me was molten gold. I felt happy, like not happy when you get a gift or something, but like happy in a way id never felt before. I felt at peace, I felt at one with the world, my body felt like it was bathed in the morning sunlight, i felt alive and optimistic, it was like, i was in heaven. It was like a kaleidoscope of feelings that was beyond me, beyond what i was, it was like my entire being had found what it was missing, it was pure and absolute bliss. I went to sleep after just sitting on my bed for for hours just marveling on that feeling, i regret that decision to this day. The next morning when i woke up, the world was so much brighter, the colors seemed alive and i felt like i could achieve anything i wanted.

Id never felt anything like that in my entire life, it was better than sex or weed or alcohol or drugs or an orgasm. Everything iv felt ever since is dull in comparison, even love seems flat. Id do anything to feel that again.