My dad is an ass, acting all sweet and then telling me I can just move home when I "don't make it" and "when things don't work out". I'm 24, I've been on my own just fine for the last 6 years. Hes had diabetes for years and doesnt take care of himself, blatantly blaming everyone else for his problems. My mom has horror stories of how he just regularly bleeds all over the fucking place without batting an eye or wanting to change.
Lots of people talk about their "low point" that made them want to lose weight and I just don't think my dad will ever have that. No matter how many times we plead with him, make him diabetic friendly food night after night, give him healthy snacks, manage portion control, etc. and invite him to exercise with us (easy stuff because of his poor condition: go on short walks, play the Nintendo Wii, do some reps with some small dumbbells, ANYTHING), he refuses saying it's too much effort. And yet he insists on driving himself out to "take care of himself" which means gorging on all sorts of fast food and awful gross snacks and whatever. Yet for some stupid ass reason I love him because he's my dad. I feel endlessly guilty I can't fix everything wrong with him for my family. If I didn't love my mom and sisters so much, I'd just cut him out of my life and move on with my life.
Throughout the years I've watched him lose weight, balloon up again, lose mobility, have things look ok and then he gets that weird dry looking rash on his legs again. He drove my mom and older sister to alcoholism, my younger sisters to crippling depression and the rest of our family refuses to speak to us because of him. Through all this awful abuse he throws at us, I just wonder when thisll all just...start. will he start bleeding from his mouth too? Will his limbs just fall off one day? Will that hernia in his belly button just pop that fat and maybe some intestines burst out onto his bed into the garbage that he manages to accumulate despite me cleaning out his room monthly? What can the doctors do? What will my family do? How will they tell me? Honestly... I hope I don't see him alive when it does because I know he will use his last breath to blame me for everything.