I feel you.

Its not the profession, its human nature. People feel stress, and they need an outlet. so they look for the weakest link and expell that stress. We unfortunately have chosen an extremely stressful profession, especially for people who just want to please and care for others.

Most people are so unevolved that they dont even realize what assholes they are being. And nurses are at work for such long hours that it becomes their life. And then egos get into play. and then it becomes a barrage of incident reports, writeups, and gossip.

And... women are assholes. I have never worked in a women dominated field until i became a nurse, and i fucking Hate It. Women are so catty, mean, conniving, backstabbing assholes. I'm a woman and getting into nursing has reminded me why i dont keep many women as friends. I have been gossiped about, and have called the gossipers on their shit to their faces. They just turn around and gossip harder, and then start making shit up to fuck with my job and my income. That is unnaceptable to me.

I am looking for a way out myself. Self employment. Non hospital work. On top of all the bullshit that we have to deal with when it comes to coworkers, I am so dissolutioned with the healthcare system. Half the time I feel like a drug pusher because my patients set their alarms to their pain med administration times. If I wanted to sell drugs, I would do it, and i would be making way more money and have way less hassle. The rest of the time, I feel like I am just running around in a daze answering call bells, trying to appease assholes who care for themselves so little that they ended up in the hospital, but now expect me to answer to their every beck and call.

I want to help people who want to help themselves. I feel like i'm wasting my energy being a nurse.