It seems like anything that questions your ego in the slightest, even inadvertently, sends you into a wild rage. You can't live like this. You're a fucking bomb waiting to blow up. You're a menace to the general public.

I don't think of this as real life, I don't think of you all as people. It's wrong. I admit that. I treat this like a game, hence the throwaway. I'm not a good person for this, but really? I imagine this isn't the first time you've had shit thrown your way for your less than bright demeanor on the internet.

I am this way, I am a troll, because I don't have the guts to act like this in my real life. You can extrapolate my behavior, but not directly in the way that you are. You think I'm a rich white cis male whose in his early twenties. You've got a total of Zero of those correct. Do you realize how many assumptions you've made and how every one of them is false? All you can use is that I was a fucking asshole to you and two other people on the internet, and I blew it out of proportion. I called you a cooch for the tone you gave me, and you used that as ammo for me being a jerk. You have thicker skin than that, I know you do. This sub-reddit lives off hurting other people's feelings, don't even pretend this is off the mark. I never said you weren't listening to me either, you were the only person listening. The two other people who decided to turn my personal life into a narrative and shit on me for it aren't exactly stellar people themselves. They are sad and lonely, big whoop.

Do you understand that your feelings are not always reflective of reality, and therefore it is wrong to use your feelings to justify being a dick to people because you feel like they were dicks to you?

Yes, I know all of these things. Why can't a person be aware of the shit they do, and still do it anyway out of spite? It's completely human, don't try to label me as sub-human because I am shitty to people on the internet. If anything this is some strange outlet to direct my rage of being hurt, to people who aren't sympathetic to begin with. I genuinely wish I didn't call you a cunt, but I don't regret calling you a cooch. I regret telling oldfart to get cancer. Not being of the backlash that came of it, but because it was wrong. Being an asshole to complete strangers if you're introducing yourself as a person is one thing, but this is as a ghost. You feel this way about me because I want you to feel this way about me. It was a hateful thing I did. I never thought I did nothing wrong, I was purposefully doing wrong. What I wanted was for those two people to realize I wasn't blaming it all on the other girl, but I knew they were never going to admit that even I somehow convinced them otherwise. Why? Because it was now a brigade situation, shoot down the misogynist time. I felt they weren't going to respect what I said to them anyway so I dealt it out. I dealt it out in childish buckets that said the world about me and how I felt but who knows if it hurt anyone else's feelings, but that was the point of it all. If I had replied by saying wow you guys are being rude and are hurting my feelings, that is not the situation at all, they would have doubled down on me. That's how it works, and I see it. This is a hateful place. Can you pick me out on my other accounts by the way I talk? Maybe. I called you those things because you hurt my feelings and you talk in a "tell-it-like-it-is-take-your-medicine" parlance. I probably thought you were going to roll your eyes at it and end it. I don't know if you every say mean things out of spite, or this is how you want to talk or have people perceive I don't know. But I'd wager you dole it out as much as you receive it here. Again, this is the internet. It's not that people questioned something that damaged my ego, they didn't question me at all. They were just rude, trying to deconstruct me for their own amusement.