My father, who is an orthopedic surgeon, has done reconstructive surgeries of some cases similar to Ms. Pacman video just the face split part, people with split skulls from domestic violence, mangled legs, arms from bike accidents etc. He used to bring photos, videos of such cases, idk some doctors that he used to perform the surgeries with used to bring cameras and video tape the procedures. To review them later i guess, he never shared it publicly just kept it with his medical documents about the procedures. It always fascinated me that doctors like him had to deal with this stuff everyday. That was like 7-8 years ago. In school i never watched, only heard about videos of beheading, torture etc from friends. After high school, I started from videos like the 1 man 1 jar, 2 guys 1 hammer, etc. I watched them all and also watched people reacting to them online, explanations etc. And i just kept exploring and since most videos were from 4chan and reddit, i just decided to come directly to the source. Well recently, mostly this year 2022, i started watching everything i could get my hands on. I still have a hard time watching most stuff but idk i just think that if people can upload NSFL videos then i should be fine too.