steroids kind of ruined my life... but in a good way?

tl:dr do not use steroids if you think you have a sex addiction.

I admittedly used them too early. Was a gaming nerd who just wanted to look better and be more confident around women.

Long story short, with hard work, the body and confidence definitely come. I could not stop thinking about sex. I choose careers and go to classes that put me around beautiful women.

I got addicted to fucking escorts at first because I had no social skills. Testosterone made me really stupid and want nothing but to do it raw and cum in them as much as I could, thinking I was mostly infertile. And they definitely gave me social skills.

Then I settled down with the (almost) most perfect gf 12 year old me imagined I would have. Guess what? I fucked it up. I can’t stop thinking about other women. And I’ve really fucked this relationship up.

TLDR we met a randomly cutie on the plane, decide to meetup with her with my gf... couple shots in, she’s on top of my dick because we were thinking of having a threesome. And I guess my gf really didn’t like pussy. Especially not the sight of another woman on me. She nopes out in the middle of it crying and screaming. And then it all went to shit. Am I the asshole?

Fuck