Just want to rant boys been super depressed recently can’t get out of bed and just want to get baked take adderall and listen to music all day until I drink or smoke my self to sleep and repeat. Quarantine was a giant bender for me about a bottle a day plus tons of adderall blow and whatever other drugs available. Quit my job where I was in that environment and have been chilled out last few months but now I just don’t want to do anything but smoke and sleep. I want to start therapy or something but Idk I just feel like it won’t help like I’m so pessimistic about the future for so many reasons that are outside of my control and just don’t really care about anything but my close friends and families anymore