Get it off your chest, what's bothering you right now?

I'll probably end up deleting this later bc I'm late to the party but I just really need to get this down somehow.

I thought college was going to be amazing and fun but so far it's only been extremely stressful, difficult work while everyone around me seems to be succeeding. I can't sit and focus long enough to actually get assignments done efficiently. People here can be really awful and harsh here, and I miss my old friends. I miss things being simple. I miss my parents.

I have two papers due on monday and a four hour midterm on sunday and I can't bring myself to do any of it right now because I'm so bone-tired from going to classes all day. I keep telling myself that tomorrow is the day I'll get my shit together, but tomorrow never seems to get here. I stopped caring about my appearance a long time ago, but a few people keep commenting on it here like it's everything about my self worth. Maybe it is? I don't care anymore.

I want to stay to keep learning--because, fuck, I used to love learning-- and because I don't want to let my parents down, but every day just seems like I'm drowning here. Fuck, I wish I had time to make more friends. I wish someone would reach out to me on campus at some point. I wish teachers would realize that I can't afford to get a C or I'll lose my merit scholarship, and the fear of doing bad work is fucking debilitating.

Maybe I'm just not transitioning well but I feel like I'm on a hairpin trigger for crying all time an everything is a spiral downward, but it's really starting to suck.

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