I know you're right. I don't even know if I was though tbh. She claims she doesn't have feelings for me at all. But then she'd do things like hang out with me knowing how I feel. Hell I awkwadly told her I loved her every time we did and she would still keep hanging out with me though wouldn't go further. She also claimed that didn't qualify as leading me on, even though she refused to ever have a conversation or respond in any way when I said it. Idk what she was thinking, whether she really just wanted to be friends, whether she was using me for self validation, or if she actually did have feelings for me to and just had really bad committment issues. Guess it doesn't matter anymore. I at least knew I couldn't try to force her into a decision or talk the way I did, but I knew I would have to decide on a city soon and felt like I had to rush it.