As for another idea, I watched alot of anime and play alot of video games. And in alot of them I am starting to think that some of the characters reflect myself and some of the other characters reflect other people in my life that came close to me. For example in the anime death note, I believe that I am represented by the character Near and some of the other characters like Mello would represent someone like Donald Trump but also previously one of my close friends. My actual name is also Nir so I find this odd, I am not very used to this metaphorical type of thinking. I always thought that these animes or video games were created by someone in Japan or in a game studio and has no meaning about me or the other 6 billion people in reality.