I don’t know you ... so please don’t take offense by these questions. Plus, I’m a TMI/overshare person.
Have you been diagnosed with ADD, ADHD, PTSD, an insanely high IQ, obsessive compulsive disorder, etc?
I ask because I have adult ADD/ADHD and CPTSD so when I am able to focus, I hyper focus for hours and hours and hours....
Like today, I haven’t had a meal and just realized it about an hour ago. I have to force myself to do the simplest things which seems so dumb to me (and I am sure to others).
But it was explained to me that my IQ, combined with my trauma, combined with my ADD has increased how fast my brain thinks and often gives off the wrong impression to people when I first meet them. Like I sometimes come off as “irrational” because I talk super fast naturally and at a level most can’t comprehend due to my speed and words.... so I have to balance my frustration with people not doing the right things/being unethical/immoral with my natural tendency to think and talk at a level most can’t keep up with (even though it’s “normal” to me) so that I can be a better communicator.
It’s ironic because I can teach students (K-12 and higher ed) totally fine. I have done it for 10+ years. It’s adults who refuse to escape out of their POV that I don’t have time for anymore.
Then I get Personally frustrated because I can’t do complex stuff like I could simply because I am still going through the trauma, but apparently (per research) my brain will return to “fast and complex” once the abuse stops and the neurotransmitters can repair themselves/can “build a bridge to over the hole”.