This is kinda relatable to me. I'm a 22 year old man. I've always been extremely socially odd, and I have always had a very hard time understanding social cues and norms. People pick up on this, but not immediately and not to the full extent because I'm pretty good at mitigating the effects. I've embraced a fairly idiosyncratic personality, and I've regulated my behavior to avoid the kinds of relationships that I know I'm unable to manage. Unfortunately this has caused some problems

It's hard for others to tell just how socially disconnected I really am because of my "career success," my entertainingly odd, harmless, manufactured, affected personality, my limited set of essentially algorithmic social skills for limited contexts, and my excessive regulation and restriction of my own behavior