Okay Reddit, what are you hiding...?

I'll be honest, you have some pretty solid advice, and I think you are right about all of these things, but I'm off the deep end. My anxiety is so overwhelming and my fear of judgement stretches so far that it does not matter what happens, even if my partner is fine with me I'm sure I will be convinced that I need to leave the relationship. Of course it's no one's fault but my own, and maybe I'm being immature by saying this, but I have tried everything, therapy didn't help. You are probably thinking I have essentially given up, and you are most likely right, and for that, I'm sorry for making you write out incredible advice for it to be unused. You seem like you care about others and I'm thankful that you thought about my well-being. I've been thinking a lot about life and the purpose of life, and it seems as if my life does not have a purpose. I tried to convince myself that I could make my own purpose, that I didn't need a partner to lead a fulfilling life, but it seems as if that foundation I have been using to support myself is crumbling as I yearn more and more for a human bond. I think if I were to die, I would like to die saving someone else, but that opportunity seems far-fetched. I'm sorry for venting and I'm sorry that you had to hear it, because you definitely didn't deserve to, but I just feel hopeless and yelling at myself and telling some random stranger on the internet about my problems made me feel a little better. I guess I'm a bit more assertive on the internet than in real life.

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