[cont]

I'm afraid this post is particularly poorly written, and even before hitting the go-button i'm aware of any number of sentiments i failed to articulate as i'd intended to.

Please accept my apologies for them, and do me a favor and spare me the attempts at concern or correction. Neither do i want a pep-talk.

This isn't written to you, but rather to myself and.... I know what the full story is. I unquestionably do need some quite serious correction, but as in the story... I have to choose to be corrected, and i'll be taking my own steps to do so.

This is why i said the story isn't just talking about lust. Although it also very much is both in general and to me specifically.

I got into internet porn when i was 12 years old, and believe me... I acquired some rather nasty perversions along the route. It very much has been something that has enslaved me, however what's worse is that i enjoyed being so.

No more, it's time for this to die. I am quite genuinely in the process of sorting my life out in general. There is a quite genuine prospect that i have acquired a mental illness along the way.

However, perversely that is a symptom brought on my part of a larger insanity. I may or may not still be mentally ill, but i am nolonger insane. I quite simply will get better, and it is certainly not a task which is beyond my ability.

However, one thing which is important that i oh so nearly lost sight of, is i need to keep choosing to choose God above all else.

I don't know what lead you to post this up, and i am not vain enough to think that it was for me... However i very much feel that God lead me to it as something i needed to see, as it has touched me quite deeply.

In that regard i say- Yes, kill it.