Who gets to decide what counts as a "can't"? In my pedi's office there are some Dr's who completely disagree that the history and warning signs are all there for my kids. Other Dr's say, no they see a very high risk factor from their experience. Who does mom trust? Who does your friend get to trust?

We still don't know, but funny tidbit, both me and kid's Dr found out that it may have ended up a blessing we delayed the Hep B for so long. At one point it became I guess a gut feeling, I recall a well visit and us both picking a different shot, even though we should have picked Hep B as it was next in line to give on the delay schedule......I ramble....turns out due to kids now dx medical condition she would have most likely needed to be re-vax as it has been found the vax is ineffective in kids not undergoing treatment. They don't know why yet, they know it's a autoimmune reaction but how or why it's triggers or not triggered. I sometimes wonder, what if she had gotten it, what if she was a rare bad reaction. What made me and the Dr, who while very supportive would prefer to shoot her up like normal, both stop and change the schedule?

It's hard to talk about it and not be some crazy person. I get it, I'm not against vaxs in anyway, but damn I've got so many red flags on this play and I need some fucking help not to be given an ultimatum.

Sometimes I let people think my kids arnt vax or the reason they are delayed vax, is because I am scared of autism. Even though I'm not, I'm not fucking stupid, it's just easier to let you believe that because there is no way you would even listen to me try and explain my experience. Which I am starting to think is maybe not the right way to feel about it.....