I knew I would get this form of response, but that question is like asking why someone stays with someone after everything that happened. And I'll say this, you can't change who you love, and what you'll do for love, you can believe people change, which is entirely up to that person to do such. I rather be prepared then not prepared, because there's a point in life where you hit every corner and aspect and still try and forget that person, however 6 years with a person, could shed a lot on this matter, it's hard releasing something you've known for too long, it's hard to forget, to move on. My mistakes are my own, and their actions may not be justified, neither mine, but anxiety also plays a big part in all of this. There's strictly idiocy, and then there's the underline fact that the relationship has been outstandingly long, and not something that can easily be tossed to the side, regardless of the mistakes that came along.