Absolutely! I recognized I was emotionally manipulative and abusive to them, and I apologized to them for it already (twice bc I just felt bad over the same situation)... I never expected them to accept said apology but I know what I did and have worked on becoming better. My apology to them had been genuine (and still is).

They just didn't like that despite my apology I made a boundary to not be friends with them because we were both bad for eachother? :( and it lead to this situation... they don't believe the apology was real which is fine, but now spread lies about me/villainize me to the extent what I did do is minute to what is being said... (i.e abuse is NEVER ok, at all, but compared to the toxicity I did do, what they're saying I did is blown out of proportion? For example, me stubbing my toe and then saying I broke my leg.)

Sadly they are not open to communicating with me, and I equally am not really willing to talk more to them because anything I say they make into something else. They think I'm a stalker too so, me reaching out to them would probably upset them a lot and perpetuate this idea they have of me in that context...

Me reaching out here is like, my last resort for support because I've done everything I've been told to do so far...

I know I caused them a lot of pain and suffering, I have no excuse for my actions- it just is upsetting to see someone take what I did and go a step further by saying I did more and 'worse'... for a reason, I don't even know.