Repentance & self condemnation are not the same thing. If you really want to become a better person, you need to interact with women & seek a fulfilling relationship.

The actual word for "repentance" in the Bible (not that your religious, but hear me out) means changing one's mind, turning around in your behavior & doing the opposite.

Even when Kayin (Kain) killed his own brother, the first murder ever committed, G-d didn't have him executed, but instead punished him by causing him to have to depend on others for everything in life, to show him that he doesn't get more by killing other people, but that he gets more by partnering with & working with other people.

What if he had vowed to become a hermit, away from civilization & family? He would cease to be of any value in society!

In the same way, you cutting yourself off from ever having another relationship is not making you look good, nor does it show that you've changed. The best thing is to allow women the opportunity to have a place in your heart. What if you could make another woman feel as loved & cherished as Mia? What if that woman would have never known such love without you? Even if it didn't turn into a relationship, you would still have been a positive impact on her by causing her to realize how valuable she truly is, that women should be treasured & respected.

Think about all that Mia taught you; don't let it be for nothing. Don't be so negative; you've learned how valuable a good woman really is, no? So go out there & practice what you've learned! Who knows what brokenhearted woman out there is in need of your love, building her up. Who knows what woman out there is waiting to help build you up! You owe it to Mia, you owe it to that special woman out there, & you owe it to yourself.

The best form of an apology is not "I'm sorry," nor is it isolation, but changed behavior.