im no good at helping or comforting people so i wont be any help, but i just wanted to say that seeing as i cant fix myself ill at least try and succeed to help others for once. im young very young, 14 to be exact so i have no real experience of life but what i think im trying to say is that you're tired but one day you might feel a slight burst of energy, find something you love or something that will bring a little joy. saviour that. find the good things because im sure, although they may be hidden atm, you'll find them. i want out too, im tired of everything but im scares of dying really really really scared, and i feel so useless to everyone but if im gone this will have an effect on them. and i times i persuade myself that they wont be affected and they wont care but when i actually THINK and realise that in reality these people, if theyre family, friends or colleagues they would have experienced someone disappear just like that. moments like this i realise how selfish i am, i should stop thinking about me and start thinking about others. but in the meantime focus in the tiny joys in life, which will eventually expand and your whole life will potentially be filled with love and happiness, even if it feels impossible at this present time. i have tried to be of some help but im sure i wasnt. apologies.