With 8 billion people in the world, there is something to envy at every turn. I've felt it sharply myself. But envy only makes our spirits sink. I know it is difficult to set those negative emotions aside, but take a moment to think of the things you are grateful for. If nothing else: food, water, shelter, even the fresh air around you. Life is difficult for everyone in different ways, and sometimes it feels hopeless, but we have the power to lift ourselves up with some effort. One small point of advice I can give you is, if you want a Toothless of your own, perhaps get a cat, or a dog. You won't be able to soar on their backs, but they will give you the brightest unconditional love you can know. Just like Toothless has for Hiccup. If you really are set on riding the back of a loving companion, maybe consider getting a horse (research the care horses need first, of course). Pets do have their expenses, horses in particular. I don't know what country you are from, but in the US there are places where you can "adopt" a horse. It will be kept at a stable, and you can visit the stable by appointment and have a set time to bond with it, ride it and care for it (I believe riding lessons can be included). It takes some of the expense of flat out owning a horse off your shoulders. As for accomplishing something important, you're 19. You have so much time to discover what mission you want to set for yourself, and so much time to grow into the person that completes that mission. Don't give up on yourself just yet. As for an Astrid, most people meet someone special sometime in their lives. Sometimes that time is later in life, but just because it hasn't come yet, doesn't mean it won't. I have a good feeling you will find someone to share your life with. I hope your spirits lift soon. Take care of yourself hon.