Pain doesn't just go away, you have to face it and accept it

Yep. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed. From having to succeed in school, work and home to dealing with the rejection of my ex, people I've worked with and current work with. I like to think that the time and effort I am devoting to myself and my future will all be worth it if I stick out the pain, but man, everyday it seems to just get a bit darker, a bit colder, a bit meaner.

Things since the breakup haven't gotten any easier, I've just embraced them for what it is.

I'm starting to think life is pointless. No matter how "good" you try to be, I'll always be the example of what not to be for someone. I'll always be the face of rejection that motivate people to better themselves.

I know I shouldn't care about what anyone thinks, but it's really a sad thought to know that I am to endure this the rest of my life and only expect it to get worse the harder I try to better myself. It's coming home from work and school all day from 5:00 am to 8:00pm and having no one to talk to, laugh with, joke with because your former self was inadequate and disliked by friends, family and my ex.

I have zero interest in ever dating again. All I want is to know that the pain of rejection, loss and lonesomeness will hopefully mean something worthwhile in the next few years. Otherwise, if not, I'm not sure I can go on another 10-20 years being constantly rejected and treated like shit.

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