The pain is too much. I do not want to continue. I wish I die tonight. Or soon at least.

i appreciate it, but a lot of this isn't true every time. i am not saying this as hate or anger or cirticism but i've found that much of this sometimes may is not true.

but trust me, it will get better.

i doubt that. this is what happened to me after decades. Decades. of living. not weeks, or months, or years. it does get better for some people. but for many people it does not. i think there might even be a thing on the sidebar of this sub that says something like that. i don't know. may want to check that. i can't see it from here.

Nobody will be better off or happier with you gone.

this is also not true. you're just saying that to be kind, but you have not lived my life. you do not know. i do. i have decades of evidence to back it up.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

No, it isn't. I mean, sometimes, it may be, but that's not a platitude that can be thrown at every suicidal person. i think that might be the platitude i personally have heard the most and have always found the least true. Many people choose suicide as a solution to a permanent problem. Because it's impossible for someone to know that "it will get better" or that "oh, you're problems' not so bad, i know it's only temporary". for many people, it doesn't. you say "in ten years you'll look back and think that", but you're missing the point......i was literally suicidal ten years ago. Looking back now? I wish i had done it then. in fact, i wish i had done it twenty years ago. it has not gotten better.

A close relative of mine suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts for a while. I interviewed her for school and she said that if she could tell everyone one thing, it would be that you should never give up. "You will find joy."

and that's a good thing, that they thought that. but there are dozens if not hundreds of types of "suicidal" and/or "depressed" people. one size does not fit all. some people struggle with depression or suicide or whatever for a while, and get better. some do not.

i dont know. hearing things like this doesn't upset me like it used to. it's just that when they are said to me, i feel like i should point out they aren't always true about everyone.

thank you for trying. nothing you said would have made any difference, because i've been decided on this for literally years. but thnk you for trying. it was nice.

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