From what I’ve read, you do need therapy, this is no way for someone to think about their life. You talk about your parents like shit, it’s not their fault, it’s not yours, don’t blame it on them because at base they fucking care dude. You’re spending too much time in shitty circlejerks trying to find justification in your own lack of willpower, it won’t help.

It’s far from too late, instead of focusing on yourself try to get out there and do something decent for someone in an even shittier position than you maybe? Then your not a “slave to the wage” you’re doing it for someone who actually needs it and people will respect you for that. Working for a wage isn’t the only way to live, you support people who need it and you will be supported when you need it