Single fathers can’t deal with partner issues you’re supposed to be strong at all times for him and his child. I suffered from severe postpartum depression with both my children which are also my husbands. He couldn’t deal with supporting me because he was overwhelmed with BM and SD and flat out told me “I can’t help you” then left me twice with babies that were his. He said “you can’t handle this” and he was right I couldn’t. I don’t understand why you have to be this loving stepmother to a 15 year old? I could see if he was 5 but he’s almost an adult. Why do you need to be over the moon? I do agree you shouldn’t have told him you don’t love him you should have just said you love him in your own way. Ok so you stay in your room a lot. What are you expected to do with a 15 year old? As far as you, are you getting help? On medication? Seeing a therapist? What are you doing for yourself?