I see and like what I hear. For me it's pleasing a woman in front of her husband. I'm not into humiliation, homosexual , or anything super weird. I just have a kink for long sex while husband watches. I have a big dick (not a monster) definitely enough for the special places. My gift and curse is stamina, takes alot ro get me there. I have a unique convict look(don't worry I earned it long ago, and I findladies are attracted by it) with alot of tattoos. I would say that I am definitely unique. As far as being scared, never done it but I pride myself in pushing through fear. I'm funny charismatic and maybe what you are looking for. Like I said never tried it like this . A closed mouth don't get fed. DM if you want to chat further