A pastor molested me when i was 11, He was caught last year and my parents still defend him and put me down when i mention it saying satan got me. I am so done. RELIGION IS BAD!

That's just awful. I'm so sorry to hear this. I am currently in a ruminatation type trigger with a similar situation with my mum although she just passively acts like nothng happened and keeps prodding the bear by mentioning how she thinks Michael Jackson was innocent and why do I believe the 2 men saying otherwise which has caused me 3 days of mental anguish. I really recommend finding a therapist that works for you because no one can process that level of torment on their own. I hope you find peace and stability away from your cold, fucked up parents. Let them live their fucked up reality far away from you. That's their business, it doesn't have to be yours. Take good care of yourself. It's easy to punish yourself but what you need most is to challenge this and see why you are worth fighting for. You are. They are not.

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