People are hostile or non responsive and I cant take it anymore

I don't mean to sound like a douche, but i think you should probably cut off those friends of yours from your life if they're really belittling you so much.

From experience I'm telling you that being alone is much better than being with someone who constantly lowers your self esteem even further than what it is. I had a "best friend" like that.

And i feel you about that part with strangers being completely unresponsive or just obnoxiously hostile as if they're automatically superior, man. I really do. People are asses.

At this point if you really gave it your all with therapy and constant attempts of social interactions with no success you should just lay off it for a while.

After all this you should embrace the fact that this issue is not truly your fault. It's pretty obvious that other people just have bias against you for whatever reason and they're the ones who should get their minds checked, Not you. Normal people can interact with others comfortably and easily due to them having constant positive validation from others ever since they were children. Its not fair that just because you never received it you are not only expected to build yourself socially from the ground up, Overthink how to act or what to say without making any mistakes around strangers like you're stepping on eggshells, And after all that just being casually dismissed.

And a pretty odd question but do you have any online friends you can talk to and play with or what not?

If you don't i really encourage you to try and find some, Even though i know it can be really tough to have enough feelings of self worth to even do that after having such a shitty experience with people irl, like - "Yeah Yeah this guy would probably never be so friendly towards me if he actually met me in real life".

But ill be damned if having someone to joke with and talk to online without having to fear him having an obvious bias towards me from the get-go was not a godsend from time to time.

Whatever you decide to do though i really hope things work out for you, For what it's worth. You should be commended for actually stepping outside your comfort zone and constantly doing your best to fix your situation. Not many people have the courage to do that. Take care, dude.

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