Why do I want people to care about me?

It's not that. I just want people i care about to care about me in return. But they wont. Its always just a competition to them. They could do the bare minimum... which isn't much... they dont have to ring me for birthdays or ask how my day is or even talk to me at all... all they have to do is not only bother with me when they want to make me feel shit. I dont get why they do. I do all the nice and decent things, like see how they're going and let them vent and cheer them up... and they cant even just do the bare minimum of not making me feel like shit.

An ex girlfriend rang me to tell me she was getting married and even sent my family invites. I don't get why? She hasnt seen my family for years. We have barely had a conversation for a decade. Then she got annoyed because I ignored it all because it had nothing to do with me. How is that not just trying to rub something in someones face? She didn't want me and she didnt want to be friends anymore in the past... why am i in the wrong?

Ive had an ex who told me after we broke up that she never actually cared about me and it was just a joke to her and that she never considered it a real relationship and would never refer to me as her ex. Then she got annoyed at me for being okay with it after a decade and treating her the same? I just dont get it... she didn't want me and she didnt even like me... so why be cruel to me when im giving her what she wanted?

My most recent ex talked to me about the guy she met on Tinder 24 hours after she dumped me. Seriously... she dumped me... then used me to talk about a guy she met 24 hours later on a hook up site. Then complained if I so much as talked to another woman. I love her, but... she didnt want me... she doesnt just get to have my affection when it suits her.

These are women i care about strongly. Whose opinions matter to me and whose words will affect me. I can be as polite as possible, and be as diplomatic as I can... but it's always a competition to them where all they want to do is bait and hurt me. If they don't want to care about me, that's fine... but you don't have to be an ass. Im exhausted and depressed from all those women in this past year just being needlessly cruel... and they just dont get it. They would rather be cruel and drop me than do the bare minimum... of not being cruel. No matter how much I explain it to them, no matter how many times I point out that they didnt want me so it's weird that what I do upsets them. Im just an inconvenience whenever there isnt something in it for them.

Its not random love and care i want. It's from specific people. If they dont want me in their lives... it's fine, but being sarcastic and needlessly cruel... is just to inflict pain and that's such a dick move and im just so exhausted.

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