Its true and its not that I'm controlling or anything. I really tried connecting with people but I just can't seem to do it and overwhelmed easily that after 2 hours of talking I completely shut down and just want to go home, so I stop talking but stay because its rude otherwise.

I also had a bad experience, we went to a party and I really connected with another girl, we talked about video games, food etc...i asked if she wanted to go hang out sometime and a few weeks we went out together for lunch. We had a good time I thought, ate and recommended tv shows, music etc to each other and even went to somewhere else for dessert. She said she'll be busy with work in the next few weeks so I didn't mind...but...that was 3 months ago.

I don't like people anymore at all, I'm still friendly, ask them about things and talk to them but have no interest in making friends. On the other hand, if my bf wants to go out with his friends I don't make a fuss about it, I let him go out and don't message (unless its like 1am, then I get worried, he doesn't go clubbing but hangs out etc with them).

Or last weekend, a video game came out and he said he really wanted to play it, I didn't bother him all weekend.

I really don't mind not having friends, its too hard now at my age anyways because they all want to have a family and children and we're not intersted in that so I'm expecting to not hang out with many people anymore.

I know people like to listen to themselves, and I didn't mind in the past to talk and ask them questions to make them feel important...but now, I feel frustration that nobody seems to care about hearing me out or about my life, so why continue on?

I don't want to make my boyfriend care, I want a way to be able to vent my frustration of life etc to someone or in some way and stop caring if friends and people don't listen anymore to what I have to say.