People feeling down, what is making you feel that way?

I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years and it's been a fucking rollercoaster we ended up having sex one night in my car when were were tying things off and after that she went to Austin and stayed the night with my then best friend in a hotel after they saw a concert. (They went to Austin for the concert and stayed in a hotel due to "not wanting to drive back") I work almost minimum wage with a car payment that drains me to having ~$100 from each check after paying my phone as well. Working hard as fuck in school is nice all grades except one are B- or an A but only having around 4-5 hours a sleep a night is taking it's toll. I keep falling in and out of xanax because at first I felt like it would really help with my stress although I don't have a prescription for it.

On top of that after work one night at around 3 AM a cop drove past me while I was listening to music in my car before I was going to head inside. Long story short he went passed me then went into reverse and stared at me. I flashed my inside light to let him know that I see him and I'm not a threat or hostile. He then pulled into my driveway and then blocked me in my front yard while my family is asleep, shined his flashlight in my back window as he was coming to the driver window and saw my grinder. Told him it was for tobacco to which he replied that he smelled weed. He told me that the reason he pulled into my yard after staring at me for 30 seconds is because it looked like I was breaking into my vehicle. (I was literally sitting in the front seat, listening to music while browsing instagram) me to step out of my vehicle and talk to him behind it (in front of his). As the other officer opens my front door I turn around (without walking up to him or even taking a step, just simply turning my body around 150 degrees.) to say that I didn't consent to search (like it fucking mattered) and I'm immediately put in handcuffs and they search my car for ~15 minutes to which they only find the grinder they saw in the first place. Give me a drug paraphernalia ticket which will basically make it impossible for me to get financial aid for college which I have been working my ass off to get at least decent grades in. Going to try to get deferred deposition so I can get it wiped from my record but I don't know :/. Cop was so fucking sure I had weed in my car he told me he knew I did and to just tell him up front or it would be worse for me.

Wow I spent a lot more time on that than I thought I would and it wasn't even short like I said but I'm not going back to fix it.

I'm stressed out all the time BUT I did just get a raise so I'm not quite minimum wage anymore so that's cool. Just got braces at the late as fuck age of 18 but hey I'm thankful as fuck that it's happening so that's cool.

Probably going to delete this later if I'm being completely honest I feel like i'm letting out way too much but fuck me dude.

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