Yeah that's all true and compared to the terrible comedown from coke alone ( which I won't touch now because the anxiety is maddening ) the coke comedown is fondly remembered and is very pleasant. I keep trying to justify to myself a responsible use scenario but it always involves the same formula as before; keep working, save up money, finally think you're "stable and legit", then partake, but then I realize that's how I started last time. It's starting too and I'm managing anxiety with dabs and the occasional drink which I already sense becoming a problem ( I have one beer sometimes, just so nervous about withdrawing from alcohol and having seizures again. First seizure ever, worst part is I remember exactly before the seizure and felt the weirded sort of feeling before it was at like 3 am I woke up to go to the bathroom didn't even go then turned around and dropped like a rock. Remember the trash can in front of my face and has a sore ass head and concussion symptoms. So yeah idk man that's my experience haha. Good luck man and just remember if shit ever goes south life is forsure worth living and there's nothing you can't mentally recover from with a strong mindset at least in this case I think. At one point I remember eating like 20 bars and barfing and passing out and waking up and doing something similar. So no matter how bad it gets try to taper a little ( I basically didn't only had 3 pills after I realized I was withdrawing ) and cut back as much as you can.