Some People have the Bible or Qur'an , I have the slam book. I went to a government high school in the early 2000s I was shy , awkward and had extra cash all the time. During 10th I used to get beaten up all the time because I would refuse help or say some dark jokes or just existing .The teachers wouldn't react as I was deemed to dumb to pass and my guardian and I were never close enough to talk about personal issues. So I took things into my own hands and started provoking guys to beat me. I would yell long monologues about fucking their mothers and I would be left bleeding on the ground. It helped me to stay at home and watch TV.Eventually the exams got over and everyone brought slam books. In my book aside from a couple of guys , most of the entries were abuses , people asking me to switch genders , try out male prostitution and a one asshole named George Deepak wrote "Killing yourself is your only chance at achieving something".

I did pass with mediocre marks and did great in 12th , college and PG . But there are sleepless nights where I stalk my SSLC batchmates online. I would find happiness at their male pattern baldness , their ugly wife's and their mediocre lives. Even though I'm depressed and alone with no romantic prospects in the horizon , I make way more money and never killed myself . I would never be able to forgive them nor will I ever stop finding comfort in their failure. There are some really bad days where I'd read the slam book and fantasize about luring them and abusing them Dahmer style(No Homo) or realistically pay someone to do it for me. In life there is no closure , anger , jealousy and rage is what makes us who we are.