I did for a short period of time and honestly I have no idea why. I did talk about it then with a friend and I feel like I made myself think that I wanted to kill myself. I even told her that. I liked her at the time and being completely honestly I feel like part of the reason I said some of those things was for attention and I feel truly horrible for it. I don't know why I did the self harming thing. One time I was very upset though and tried using scissors and it didn't really work and I got mad at it and did try forcing it to make it break skin. The other times where I used an actual razor I don't know why I did it to be completely honest. I can't seem to shake the idea that maybe I did do it partly for her attention but I feel like it wasn't Ijust that cause at a point if I remember correctly, I just started doing it to see the blood or scar. I don't really know. I'm extremely ashamed either way. What's funny though is that from like freshman year to now(senior year) I truly have been feeling horrible and pretty sad either no explanation why and it's been killing me. I've felt so damn lonely and all I really want it someone to talk to about things or just talk in general. Or just a hug would be the best thing in the workld. It has been a lot better though so that's good.