Honestly I didn't even care about sex at that age mainly because I didn't know it was happening around me. Now I know what I was missing out on.

I cared a whole lot about the romance side of it and I did get to experience some of that but very rarely. My first kiss was in a field at midnight sitting on top of this fallen down tree and you could see the stars. But even after a week she rejected me saying she 'needed a man to protect her'.

I didn't even know sex happened that much around me. Until I lost my virginity to a girl I thought I liked a lot at 20 and a week later she proceeds to tell me how her ex liked having sex with her and how she'd already had sex with 6 guys before going on to break up with me.

I guess I only have one positive experience and it was only for a night. When I was 19, in my first week of university a girl came over my dorm and she wanted me to take her virginity. I didn't want to because I believed virginity to a girl is special and I didn't want it to be some guy she barely knew. She just got naked and put my hand on her boob and we just cuddled and made out staring at a poster of the moon I used to stick on my ceiling. She left her necklace and she later text me 'don't worry, i'll find a way to get it back ;) ' but after a few nights of her asking where I was at night (me not getting the hint) it fizzled out.

I remember getting upset at 4am when she stopped cuddling me but luckily she woke up again and opened her arms so that I would come and hold her and everything was okay. It seems weird to think about all that now that I'm in my early to mid 20s when everything has changed so much.