Really hit it on the nail. I somehow apologized for all the bullshit games she put me through and it was hysterical to her bc I sounded juuust like the abusive one crawling back to her (thats a table i helped turn myself, also found myself saying "wow, i cant believe that asshole u told me about still calls you!! Thats weird!") I apologized for being suspicious about all her lies that were actual lies. Gave her the benefit of the doubt along all these coincidences thrown in my face and in the end, I let her play the victim of her own sins while also humiliating me for it. I should've stuck up for myself but in that state, you're still trying to doubt your own judgement. All just senseless mind games to see if she could play the game better.