the closer he got to his gf/now wife, the further we grew apart. a lot of things happened, but the gist of it was that i was being disrespected in numerous ways. he always wanted me to do him favors, but he never did any for him. his friends were always invited to his apartment to hang out, but i was always an afterthought. it was annoying to have someone constantly judge my every action/inaction.

on top of that, there was no such thing as privacy. i expected that whenever i told him something it'd stay between us because we're brothers, but his wife always know what was going on. even when i would tell him to keep it to himself, she always knew.

the straw that broke the camel's back was nearly a year ago. i went out with him and a friend to go watch a movie and neither of them had money. i had my credit card so they asked me to pay for them. at first i was hesitant because i didn't want to pay for someone i had just met, but my brother convinced me. i was told that i would be paid later that week because they would both be getting paid. the weekend came and went, but i never got my money. time went by and he'd get annoyed whenever i asked him for my money. this pissed me off because whenever he'd loan me money or had to give me money, he'd be on top of me and wouldn't leave me alone until the money was paid back. when he was in that position, he'd expect me to just forget about it and move on. what was worse was that he had his friend's back instead of mine, he never once told his friend to pay me back and that hurt me; it's as if i was nothing.

a lot has happened over a year, he's going to move into a house and will soon have a baby. though i miss him, i don't miss all of the times i was treated like a fool or an afterthought. it's not the first time we haven't been on speaking terms, but it has been the longest. in the past, we've reconnected, but things never changed, they were always the same.