My father died when he was 49 when I was 21. He and my mother had me at 18. Anyways we were super close. He lived a tough life as a kid in the ghettos of LA. His family moved up here to washingtom when he was 18 because him and my uncles were getting into some really illegal shit and being hood rat kids. He turned it around so fast he became a role model to me, I thought if anyone can make something of themselves with nothing given to them I can too. My father was the best thing to be in my life at the moment. Well my parents separated when I was reap young. Like 6 or 7 but I saw him multiple times a week. He developed a terrible drinking problem when I became old enough to be independent. Drive, work, girls, you know. He became lonely and I saw him less. I had no idea my dad went off the deep end and it ultimately killed him. The years of smoking and drinking killed my father. When I found out he died I had just walked into the door of my home to a voice-mail on the phone telling me he died. Instantly my life changed for the worst.
After that I stopped leaving my house. I drank every day, all day like my dad. I sobbed all the time and blamed myself. I was a wreck. After 2 years of this I foreclosed on my house, pissed away all my inheritance, and gained over 60 pounds. My life was over. I used to be adventurous and active, now I was sitting at home, drinking and working just wishing some miracle would happen to make it all better. It never did.
I finally met a beautiful girl, she saved me. I met her months before I was forced out of my house by police. She had no idea but didn't leave me. She gave me a place to stay and an ear to listen. I told her about my life, the stuff she doesn't see. She helped me change it all around. Helped me raise my credit back up, lose weight, get my mind right. I got out of the house because we got a very hyper dog. He needed to be ran. So I ran him every day and still do. I now see my friends more. I finally mustard the courage to tell them why I've been absent. They were awesome about it which I was afraid for the worst. In the end it all worked out.
I am going to ask her to marry me this summer.