Idk if you're still out partying or not but I love you, you are the only reason I choose to get up and put a smile on my face....I know you think that I'm only acting this way because of today but I'm not this is years in the making and I just idk if I can deal with the stressors of my life anymore, I manage to fuck up everything, and every relationship I have, if I didn't before I'm pretty sure this conversation tonight made you done with me. I love you and I'll see you soon...you really were the best thing that has ever happened to me despite the bullshit fights we had no one has ever made me happier than you have and there are no words to describe how thankful I am for that....I'm gonna be completely honest....I've been sitting here since 10 slicing at my wrist and popping pills idk when I'm going to die but if it's tonight then I want you to remember that I loved you more than anything in the world....and I couldn't picture life with anyone.....before you freak out just call knowing me I'll fuck this up too and wake up tomorrow. But if this works I don't want you to cry or mourn I want you to go on and find someone who's not a psychopath lol