I grew up in a house full of abuse. When I was 18 I left home and met my now husband. ( Not using this as an excuse) abuse was all I knew and I didn't know how to communicate any other way. For the first year our relationship was hell. I was so abusive it's absolutely disgusting. I would break shit and scream... But I remember the first time I hit him... I remember the look on his face and it still brings tears to my eyes.. I said I was sorry. I said I would never do it again and then I did. That's when I realized I was turning into my step father. I ended up running away and leaving for the night to think. When I got home I was so disgusted with myself. I was becoming the person who made my whole life a living hell. I called the mental health office near me and started therapy soon after.... It's been 5years, were married now and couldn't be happier. I'm so happy he gave me another chance. I'm a better wife and mother. Women can abuse men and if that's you, then please get help, you can make your life better.