You remind me of a dear friend of mine, unfortunately after knowing each other for a long time, I think he no longer find what I have to say to have any value or application to his circumstances. I guess I may borrow this for personal ventilation and as you say it's probably another one of those posts...

I usually say a lot, and try to investigate into details and get really repetitive, maybe I'll try and speak differently. Oh and if I sound rude, I mean well, and I'm not trying to offend you.

Your entire 5 paragraphs are pointless, the fact that you boldly claim you have no prospect means you disregard the fundamental option of changing perspective. Your thoughts are too concrete, and won't move like concrete. Your thoughts are... doubtless... therefore you think with what you know, Your way of thinking and your attitude needs to evolve. - I'm not going to link anything, no point if you avoid your responsibility to fight and struggle, fighting and struggling is a part of life and shows the world who you are. You may be at your breaking point, but you should see it as an opportunity to make drastic changes, especially your point of view. You're depressed, and unproductive at worst, by the way you talk and how long you've lived depression is the least you have to worry about. Unproductivity is on the light scale of mental illness, so if you don't want to work, at least don't write that you can't stick to a routine, because everyone has one. You know your physical capability better than I do. I put KT tape to work if I have to, cause my family needs me, and I need myself to push forward. Everyone is different, but it doesn't prevent you from getting a job and saving up money. I don't really know you sorry if things feel out of context, if dear friend listen I really wish he had some will to use his pain to save up some money than to rationalize off his obstacles... I am not making remarkable breakthroughs myself in life, but it saddens me greatly that he's supremely sure of himself after 5 years of knowing him, that he's so confident in his knowledge, that he cease to consider that closest truth. Why else haven't he managed to get what he wanted? You, who named your reddit account Throwaway33688066 don't need wistom, to be honest you may not even need anyone's resource tbh, cause look at the way you type, you obviously know what's going on in the world around you, your not one of those TIFU people who rants about stuff, you know exactly what's going on and exactly what you want to say, and exactly what response your going to likely get. I bet you know exactly what you need to do too, but you don't want to hear it, or live up to it, cause ur account is named Throwaway33688066. I am really angry, because if you didn't name your account Throwaway33688066 and only have this 1 article, and say no prospect, I would be speaking differently. Maybe I'm pissed at my friend for not having any legitmate IRL discussions anymore I dono, seems all he talks about are video games and thinks it won't get anywhere with me because he's already considered what I have to say...

How you can go on about doing all of things you've mentioned about... is to at least start somewhere... what's the point of the rest if you already failed before you start? Have the will and have faith in yourself to push through. If it hasn't yet, make compromises, change your approach and point of view. Maybe then you can clench your teeth and work at any job that you can get your hands on, don't rush your independence from your family because they are an asset to you and your goal, you will always get skills as long as you live by the looks of your article (It's not about marketable skill, the longer you live, naturally the skill will come, but you need money to finance school), also fuck school my friend knows more than I know in a life time that I can apply to work you don't need school.I dono how you make only $710 off of mental illness, my friend makes $910 off of mental illness, you are worth more than that! Start there for your financial situation. You don't need a company to hire you, it's ideal that they hire you so you can develop and make money... well too fucking bad... I'm piss frustrated cause I work at the Tool rental in home depot, it's piss exhausting, I earn half as much as my intern program, my boss shits down my neck, and the customers are utterly incompetent when it comes to pressing the next button sometimes, I started with little to no real local friends to solid diverse group of 9, but it didn't just happen, I worked on it and I dedicated to that too, and micromanage any speck of problem that could get in our way, I walk my mom every week or so and give my dad a hand every chance I get, cause we both have no time to see each other due to our need to keep the house we build together because we all lost our high pay jobs, I have my personal goals that I twist my neck on day and night on and I blame myself for not living up my word, and I give myself shit for not talking to my homies I know online... fuck I used to spend 5-8 hours a day with them now I barely could spend a night with them cause we would just talk and play video games and people arnt up to it sometimes or god knows what, and that's hard too, makes me sad like panda got 2 half lemons shoved up the eyes. But I don't give a fuck, cause I carry in video games and I carry in life! Fuck all other lanes in League of Legend, cause I play mid only, don't carry? GTFO! First world problem compare to what your saying, but really if I were you I wouldn't give a fuck about myself either... going to work sometimes with 12 KT tapes wrapped on me like a mummy, scares the shit out of my coworkers and boss, no one complains! My boss fakes a heart attack, and my buddies watch epic rap battle videos when a customer need a hand with a heavy equipment.

Throwaway, be a badass that you can be and embrace life, not only the good, but all that the world is and will be... which is a constant piece of labor, but this isn't like preparing a pomegranate... Why else do you think shia labeouf so popular?