Please help me getting my gf back

Hi reddit, i really don't know what to do so I figured i would ask you guys for advice.. I just lost my gf of 2 yrs+ a couple of weeks ago and i don't have anyone to talk to so I've surpressing my thoughts and feelings for quite a while now. Here's a little backstory about what happened. I lost my gf a while ago and i know what went wrong: we never had any time to our selves cause i never thought about how destructive that was during our relationship. I see that now. We were always together and never did anything exciting.. When she came home from school/work i was happy to be with her and never needed anything else than that. I didn't think that this would be a problem or that it would tare on us that much. She is a special person and not just another basic bitch as everyone else. She is the only one i have ever met that i can talk to the way we talked. She is funny and clever and the only person to ever come inside my "bubble". Normally i have a very hard time bonding and talking to people, but she was immune to my awkwardness. We never had a awkward moment and always had something to talk about. It is a very special feeling to me cause i have only had that with her. The only thing i can think about is her and getting her back. I don't know what to do and I've probably done everything wrong so far. She thinks i'm too dependent of her and i understand why. I want to show her i can be what she wants, but I don't know how to do that. We've been trying to be friends, but you can guess how that went. It's hurts me mentally living like this. I have been trying to talk to other women, but I really don't like it.. It's uncomfortable to me (never had that problem with her) I have been crying myself to sleep every night since and barely get any of it. I don't only love her. I am and have always been in love with her. Please help me get her back. What's the best thing i can do? Ask me anything about it if it's unclear or if i left something completely out

Edit: She is going partying all the time and i'm afraid she might find another guy anytime.. It kills me seeing her drunken snapchats and i saw her with a guy the other day (maybe just a friend)

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