You take the pills so you don't hurt anybody by accident. So it doesn't get any worse. And then, you schedule an appointment with your doctor and you tell him that you're not satisfied with Seroquel for the reasons you've outlined here, and he'll give you something else to try.

Because, let's face it... You think you're doing everything right by shutting up and taking your meds like a good little boy/girl. But that is the opposite of what you're supposed to be doing. Yes, you're supposed to take your meds, but you're also supposed to provide honest feedback to your doctor.

If you're freaking enraged and suicidal and sleeping 15 hours a day, odds are pretty good your medication isn't working as well as it should.

However, that's the reason you don't stop taking it tonight, because it's probably helping a bit and when we're like this, we need every bit of help we can get.

This might mean resigning yourself to the suckitude of Seroquel for a month or so while your physician weans you off it and onto another med, and yeah, maybe that means trying that new thing for three months and figuring out it isn't right either...

But if you don't start the goddamn process, you'll never find something that works. I won't lie and say that you'll find some magic combination that won't have any side-effects or will give you zenitude, because most people have to accept a little bit of shit along with the benefits...

But if your meds are as bad as being ill... Talk to your doctor.

Seriously. Seroquel is usually the first-line antipsychotic they use, because it does work for most people. However, if it worked for everybody, they wouldn't prescribe anything else ever.

Yeah, you do have to do everything right... But you'd be helped along a hell of a lot if you were going in the right direction in the first place.

And you should care because you only get one life and so does everyone else and there is a best-case scenario where maybe you don't ever get to enjoy life with the naivety of a neurotypical but maybe you do get to experience it without so much negativity all the time, and even some nice moments of happiness now and again.