Thank you.

TW:suicide/self harm

I have had a few attempts, most recently was I walked out of work mid-shift and didn’t know what to do with myself. I rang samaritans (didn’t know what to expect from them though) and no-one picked up. I walked home to where I have my self harm stash (been clean for a couple of months though now even though the urges are there). I didn’t look as I was crossing the road and had drivers shouting at me and stuff...

In the past I’ve overdosed, was in the hospital once and the other time I just didn’t do anything about it, I just happened to not die.

Sorry for my response, don’t feel obligated to respond I realise it is a lot and it is unfair of me to lay this all here.

All of this makes me see that I need some change I just don’t know what that is and what could help. I’m hoping I come across other people on here that aren’t medicated and that they are doing well so I can feel encouraged to do the same... idk