I’m really new to all of this and I feel Really stupid and crazy. My no contact is not working and everything you said here rings very true for me. I want to kill my self and I’m totally isolated I feel like this has all been orchestrated and he has his own script and I’m not given any mercy. I scraped together 2 days of not texting calling crying and then he messaged me that he wants us to go In peace. I have some text messages that illustrate what’s happening between us and I need someone to look at them for me. I need a different pair of eyes to look at it and tell me if I’m crazy and if I really did make this person behave like this to me. I’m an honest person and I would never treat someone like this. I am sorry for rambling. I have been lurking on here pretty solid as a support for myself but I just read this and it is really really familiar. Please help me someone please help me.