I feel this EVERY day. As an American earning a middle class wage, I have access to so much stuff that directly takes us one step closer to the climate end game. Starbucks costs $5 AND the paper, the plastic lining the cup the lid, shipping, manufacturing, footprint of building the manfacturing plant.. even cutting back on purchases, every begrudged purchase leads humanity an infinitesimally small distance closer to it's final, violent rest.

I am a part of the tiny selfish group of people. I acknowledge that. I may not be polluting rivers with 10s of thousands of gallons of carcinogenic material, but I just maybe have permitted them to do that with a casually spent dollar. Every purchase is a vote.

I vote for slavery when I buy chocolate, coal and oil burning when I turn on the lights at home, and deforestation when I eat peanut butter.

I vote in favor of strip mining, trashing the ocean, carbon emissions, the 6th mass extinction event.

I am living in the golden age but I have a lot to answer for.