A post weight-loss reflection: The downside to being a really big loser.

Hey there,

So this isn't entirely the same because I've had a lot less weight to lose, but I feel I can relate and want to share. I had some traumatic things happen at one point ~6-7 years ago, and emotionally ate to cope with it. The last couple of weeks I got to that point in my weight loss. I lost the last pound of trauma weight. It was REALLY emotional. My anxiety came back some, I felt kind of exhausted and listless and just apathetic, stressed and sad. I gave myself permission to take a week off exercise and watching the news, other "should's" that I didn't feel equipped to meet, and I just did things that would make me feel happier. But I stuck with my calorie deficit and waited it out. I talked to my support system (boyfriend, some close friends and a family member in this case) and I shared here. It helped.

I'd approached this point in the past, but always had a kind of anxious breakdown and self-sabotaged whenever it happened, because I was scared to feel small and vulnerable and to re-experience my fears. I felt, deep down, that I didn't deserve to be healthy and experienced a lot of shame because I was scared of trying and failing, rather than making myself invisible by letting go of my goals. This time, I worked through the emotions instead of running and hiding.

The important thing is to recognize the unique circumstances that brought you to this moment and to just accept it. It's HARD. It's okay. Know that you're doing an immensely brave thing, and that it gets better. It really does. I know it's not completely the same thing (though it never really can be), but I hope it helps to hear that you're not alone and we are all rooting for you. <3

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