Teen mom here! Not catholic (but I did just get done w my reading of the catholic Bible for today ;) Going to be real with you. I had support from my parents. I was lucky. Still. It strained our relationship. We have fixed that since then. The baby's father is not in the picture either. It was so hard. I was embarrassed. Depressed. Lonely. Missed so so many things in life. I even (I'm ashamed to say) resented my baby sometimes because of missing out so much. But she didn't make the choice I did. I pray for forgiveness daily. I also had an abortion. I've learned alot growing up. Turned my life around. I'm now married, my husband adopted my daughter and we went on to have more children. I'm college educated but am blessed enough to be able to be a stay at home mom. You know what I regret? My abortion. I hate myself for it. Truly it hurts me so so so much even after all these years. You know what I don't regret? Being a teen mom to the most special girl. No matter how hard it was (and like I said I had an amazing support system. Not sure I could have done it otherwise.) I'm not trying to sway you. Just telling you how it went for me. Pray. Pray often. God will always love you (He's sort of awesome that way!) And He will be with you. Gosh I'm getting all teary eyed. I'll pray for you. Also smoking will not harm that baby so soon! Stop worrying about that! Quit obviously, but God put alot of thought into us mothers and our bodies. Take care of yourself! And in that way if u choose you're taking care of baby too. People will be cruel. But let God be your strength! He will lift you up, no matter how often we fall. Only you can choose. Wish I could hug you sweetheart. I promise that no matter what you choose it will be ok. Sending all of the love and prayers. ♡