First off, I am so sorry about your dad. My mom recently had 2 heart attacks in relation to a thyroid storm. Luckily, I managed to get her help in time, but those experiences will haunt me forever. She actually fell on the floor in front of me and died twice. Since she's now in heart failure and I'm her cargiver, I worry daily about her health. I know how much stress this can cause.

We have a lot in common though. My son is almost 3. Before all of that with my mother. I have always had anxiety. When my son was born my anxiety was amplified. I was extremely worried abou t his health. I would obsess about things like lead exposure, nutrition, him getting hurt, and pretty much anything. I know these are all real concerns, but I was overboard anxious about it. I was afraid to seek help because I wasn't really comfortable with medications and therapy hasn't really been successful for me in the past.

Seek help if you need it. Looking back, I probably should have too. It took me too long to get to where I am now. But one day it hit me. How much time do I waste worrying? I could be spending valuable time with my son. How much damage am I doing to him by worrying about his health? When I'm panicking, he knows it. I'm not the same sensitive responsive parent. I'm just a basket case. I knew I had to get it together.

I'm way more chill now. I still get anxious, but I basically learned how to accept the unknown and check myself when the panicking comes on. I only concern myself with what I can control. I try to focus on right now with my son because no matter what happens, that's what really matters. I really hope this helps, and good luck!