I think you are ok...but feels to me you are caught up on your ex...i see things that he puts up here for you..i feel..its like he is posing for you..trying to come across as that guy...know though that you are solid, a strong woman...who despite what you have given him..despite all the love..that you need to protect yourself..ok? You are a strong sensitive, kind, goddess like woman who kicks it..and does so in a way that is sweet and endearing..you got this..and his bullshit and games? You are so past that ..i know you are. its not to say that you wont have a night for the feels where you just want that feelign of being not lonely..i get that too ok? just want you to know thats what im feeling on you today..at least from FB..peace friend..you CAN and WILL do this...all this stuuff i feel in this area is from trauma when iwas boy..its hard to separate sometimes but i can feel that feel. Like when i get lonely it feels like a young version of me wanting his mother to comfort him..That feeling..is a very clingy needy feeling. Im not sure what happens for you but once i can identify that emotion or feeling i can begin to see when im not being my best self..and of course..there are times when i want to fal back into that feeling and have someone..you..catch me..but its not the right path to inner peace