fuck you and double fuck you for wanting to actually go through with it! sure, you have it tough and sure you’re going through so much right now and life is shitty and there is no fucking purpose. i don’t know what you’ve been through and in all honesty i’m not here to listen. i’m here to tell you from a person that was raped by their father, bullied for more than a decade and from someone who has been suicidal since 9 years old : i want to die and i want to do the most gruesome things to myself because i hate myself and i hate that my very being exists, i hate that i am the biggest failure and grossest thing and i fucking hate that i have to be alive when there is so much fucking ugly in this world but i am still going, i’m going because of fucking hope - the trashiest thing to exist - i am hoping that there is something fucking better, i’m pulling myself with one arm on the ground just to go a little further. there is a better life but me, you and everyone who feels suckish are scared because of how very little we trust ourselves to be better so again, fuck you for giving up, you’re being lazy. all you want is to use the easiest escape route - you’re a cheater. life isn’t on easy mode so throw away your tools and DON’T GIVE UP HOPE that there is something better. this might sound stupid but black clover the anime has taught me to persevere even when everything else tells you give up. don’t be a coward man be better, for the people who care even when it feels like they don’t.